nights - thrown

Done waking up in a pool of sweat\nBut these terrors never end\nWhen I close my eyes I go straight to hell\nSo I stay up late to postpone the pain\nAnother night feeling like I’m dying\nMy body’s shutting down and I don’t have any idea\nHow to cope or break the cycle\nAll I know is that I’m fucking tired\nOh God\nOr just anyone, make it stop\nAt least give me a night off\n'Cause I’m desperate for rest but getting less and less\nAfter years of self-neglect\nThe things I’ve seen still fucking haunt me in my sleep\nWhy do I keep having these thoughts spinning endlessly?\nYou haven’t seen what I have seen\nSo there’s no need to even try to relate to me\nThe things I’ve seen still fucking haunt me in my sleep\nWhy do I keep having these thoughts spinning endlessly?\nIt’s like my own mind is battling me\nLiving life on repeat, unable to break free